Growth

I don’t know why, but I was going through the old notes in my phone the other day and stumbled upon a little nugget. A year ago, I had a “realization” (as it is labeled). I was so pleasantly surprised to find it! I wanted to share it with you, since it’s so deep and all 😉 

“Realization: we never stop growing! Now that we have grown physically, our mental growth begins. This is the growth that counts. I always thought college was some sort of “end destination” where everything would magically fall into place and I would uncover all of the answers to the questions of life. But nope! Im still growing, maturing, learning. Change is the only constant.” 

I wish I could remember what I was doing when I wrote this down. It’s just so honest. I kind of hit a wall at this point last year because college wasn’t as magical as I thought it would be. Life was still happening (duh), I wasn’t adjusting, and I missed my high school. It was frustrating, and devastating, but also humbling. I think it took a lot for me to admit that I was, in fact, still growing. Growth is good, super good, but I wanted to be transformed into an ideal projection I had of myself. And stay that way. Forever. Unfortunately for the Michaela 365 days ago, this is not how life works. Life is about accepting the fact that you will always be imperfect, that you will always be growing and changing, and that you can’t control a lot of it. It’s about making happiness a priority, finding joy in all things, and doing small things with great love…even when you don’t feel like it. Life is a bundle of a lot of these little nugget phrases, and everyone has a different bouquet (being the girl I am, I am envisioning unique wedding bouquets. This is what too much time on Pinterest will do to you). I hope that you get the chance to be a little selfish and meticulously craft your bouquet. Do some soul searching! Live a little! Call a reputable florist (aka mentor/best friend/etc) if you need some help. And don’t get too attached to your bouquet when you think it’s all finished…because it’s bound to change again 🙂

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20 Seconds of Insane Courage

Aaaaand here’s another nugget phrase! This one, like the others, is whiplash worthy. I’ve got a mental picture of your thought process doing a double take, but very profoundly, and somewhat violently. I don’t mean any harm. It’s just that this is a pretty fantastic nugget phrase.

This one came from scuID. On our first night together around the campfire we shared something personal that was holding us back. Most were fears, some were things we wanted to change about ourselves, but they were all candid and genuine. Before we began, Lori (read: proud mama) set the scene by telling all of us that what we were about to do might be scary and intimidating (Sharing a very private insecurity? Having to be vulnerable? Um, yes, scary and intimidating), but all we needed was 20 seconds of insane courage. You know, like that one movie about the purchase of a zoo. Just ground yourself, go for it, and be courageous for a few seconds (20, to be exact). I’ve thought about this nugget phrase a lot lately and have been surprising myself with how often it is applicable. Meeting new people, making those connections, being vulnerable, opening up, speaking up– all of these things can be deterring and unsettling! And with school just picking up again, they are all happening on a daily basis. But telling myself to just have 20 seconds of insane courage has made all the difference. The first hill that you’re fighting to go up is the hardest and the steepest, so think of the insane courage as a kick ass jet pack that will get you right to the top. I believe, truly, that it can even go so far as to give you a nudge so you can go downhill swiftly and assured. Next time you’re in a pickle (read: you are a sophomore who feels like a freshman due to a newfound lack of involvement and it’s freaking you out), remember that all you need is 20 seconds of insane courage to get you through. Pickle free. Promise.